The God Who Had An Affair With Himself - @mizieya

Thu, 03 Nov 2011 15:30:54 -0400

Take no notice of the title- I just needed to have something there..

I'm currently working on two and half projects. I say two an a half not because I can but because the half is probably going to be a demo e.p. Which means it will be half the album it used to be. And also less is more. So that's gotta be a good thing.

Since 2007 I've had an army of songs that I thought were ready to be published and then realised that they weren't. They needed more development to do them justice. So I've gotten into the habit of musical reflection. Taht is to say: i listen to what I've done three to six months later or even longer. Which can be a little frustrating because the perfectionist in me has a great difficulty in letting go.

So, I finally managed to get two albums released: namely The Pandora Box (a studio effort with Lawson Dando master musician based in Cardiff Wales, Uk), and The God Who Had An Affair With Himself a home made affair using Logic Pro in my studio. Which took me a while to get used to- prior to that I had been at home using garageband but because my files were big- it couldn't handle it and neither could my old computer; may it rest in peace.. it died on me.

But it had a good innings.

My point.

Well frankly i probably dont have one. But I'm sure we can let that slide.

Is the microphone on? I feel like singing.

I wonder at times how our species can be so creative and equally destructive that it can create beautiful things. Are we just flukes? Is there a Design? Is it Dark? I hope so... Talking of Dark..

I'm a great fan of Negativity. It's ironic that we love the super villian more than we love the hero. We relate to the 'evil', the dark side of the character probably because we're not allowed to talk about our own. After all honesty is the last thing people want to truly hear.

Thoughts are powerful: they can hurt.

The God Who Had An Affair With Himself is about The Dark. It's about me, its about religion and spirituality, Gods and Death, rites and politics. Culminating with the Magnificat: The Windows Of the Soul which extols Lucifer as a Messiah working through political leaders past and present some of whom have been labelled as evil.

Perception is uncanny. Men like Saddam for instance hated by the world was loved by his daughter. She saw him as a father. Funny that..

I just had a thought as to how i could tie in my entry title with making a point. So bear with me. It goes something like this:

The last time I saw my Invisible Friend(s) was when I was a teen. I was scared to take the leap. I think thats the problem with society: we're too scared to take the leap and realise our dreams. Because its easier to play it safe. A friend of mine who isn't invisible uses fearscapes as a crutch to not progress. I could never do that. I've always believed that if you miss an opportunity- it will reappear at a later date.

The question is: whether one wants to take it.

And think if my invisible friend(s) were here... and who is to say they are not? The opportunity is probbaly what they were trying to tell me. Life may be short- but there's many avenues to traverse.

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The God Who Had An Affair With Himself - @mizieya