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This is it....
<p>So.... this is it....</p><p> </p><p>I can't go further, no way back... now I will disapear... Why? I'l try to explaine ...</p><p> </p><p>I'm 45 now, single... no parents, no brothers, sisters, no relatives... I'm just single.</p><p>In my past i did several mistakes, and now the payment day arrive...</p><p>I was chose wrong ways in my past, so now I'm in dead end, and I can't go back. Why? I had badly estimate my life options, so now I'm without job and chance to find some job, just because I'm to old in country when I live, and everyone who want to employ, want some much younger than me! Partly it's OK... They have to give a chance to younger population to survive these hard times that we live (20 years this country suffering due to poor management and bad politics - war, embargo, hyper inflation, US bombing, economic crysis... etc etc) Smal people like me suffering mostly...</p><p>So... I failed because i didn't tought in way to survive, lulled to dreams of better tommorow in my small world of happynes, 'cos i had my small world and this world is ruined now... I should not to allow that to happen. I've played chess with life and I've lost this game</p><p> </p><p>In next few days I have to lieve the apartment when i live because i can't pay the rent...</p><p>Where?</p><p>I don't know yet... probably uder the bridge or some place like that... while police don't arrest me for vagrance...</p><p>Now I realize how cruel is this world, and I'll pay all the consequences.</p><p> </p><p>My message to all of You is:</p><p>Think wisely, and think several times before You do anything, because Your decision may be critical and fatal to other people who are close to You. And mostly think about consequences of Your doings.</p><p> </p><p>Finally, I must to thank to all of You my friends, for support me like musician here. I did my best with my music... could be better, but its my vision, my feeling... I'm just a tiny man without enough experience to do better stuff. Please keep me in good memory, and let the music flow in any ways, genres or forms. Music is one of the ways to show our good mood and good will to rest of world. Music was survived always, and always will.</p><p> </p><p>Be well and God bless You all!</p><p> </p><p>Mirko Botko - DJ-WaPer</p>
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I dont also know how to answer this as it all seems very sad and but i do respect it.. why?..Because i am also around a similar situation.. I have family and friends so that does help but i cant find work and my savings are going fast, i have two months before i have no where to live (i cant go home) no room, and jobs keep turning me down or the job never surfaces.. 3 times i have been laid off in 5 years and everytime this has happend i have lost pretty much all the savings, its like im not meant to save or be allowed to move forward. Withut my music and a couple of other things (Friends,fitness and soccer) i would be fucked!!.. Im worried as my music could also be over soon if i cant find work as i wont have nowhere to record or take my gear and im worried stiff about it as its all i have thats super close and its what ive dedicated my years to. I could say hang in there and keep trying but thats easier said than done... Its worse as most of us are good honest hard working people yet people who shit on people and step on people never seem to have these problems, how do they sleep kwowing they have no feeling of guilt or remorse?.. Keep your chin up dude... I dont know you but i wish you all the best!... (Excuse my swearing)
Dave
PS: There are some very good points for the guys on this blog!!.. It could be the start of a new venture, open heart and mind!!.. Try to stay strong and dont let the world break you!!
I am the same age and going through and thinking the same exact thoughts that you put in your blog. There is nothing that a lot of good people can do about this current economic problem this country is going through. You stated your situation the same way I probably would have, so since I feel that you are trying to be objective, humble and truthful that I truly believe that you are selling yourself short. You seem to be thoughtful and responsible due to the fact that you were paying rent and worked for a living and you are only blaming yourself. You seem to still be trying to help others by offering advice and being thankful to others and for music. I have been worried myself and am down to my last unemployment check that I will send out for tomorrow. My last 2 songs have been saturated with these same apprehensions - one called "Hand It Over" has me committing a robbery so I can feed my family. The other song "Blow Me Away" is me trying to get my girlfriend not to give up on me because I haven't been able to get a job. Things are getting rough but you are not all alone. Keep that heart that mind of yours open and if you happen to turn up out in the streets you may be surprised. Mankind has not always had apartments, cars, deodorant, electricity... all of these modern conveniences that we have tricked ourselves into believing that we can't do without. You may be on an adventure that you would have never imagined and experience what it truly means to be alive. I agree with n0mad23, the universe is a magical place - we fear what we do not know. Stay good and be strong my friend!!! I'll be thinking about you and wish you the very best.
Erik Jurado
Mirko - I'm going to say "until our next meeting" instead of goodbye. The world (and universe) is extremely benevolent, and I'm keeping a positive outlook that things will work out for you.
I'm so sorry this is happening to you at all.
Try to remain optimistic. Everything changes all the time.
Your life will get better.
Your friend,
Sean
hey man, don't give up ok?
i will pray for as well most others on here will... i want you to know i too have been in this position and it sucks! and i understand..
all the best to you in your new direction, if nothing else it will make for some great music in the future when you get back on your feet! but what ever direction your going,
DON'T GIVE UP! DON'T EVER GIVE UP!
PEACE BROTHER MUSO,
WOW!!! That is some sad news,pray to God and he will grant you anything, and you know you got a friend here in Puerto Rico.
God Bless You!
Time for changes. Changes requires sacrifice and renunciation, so I'm ready to them. I got a chance to new beginning so I hope that will be for good. So.... I'm ready to move to another city where Ill start over again. That's mean Ill be without internet a while until Ill find my way in the new environment, but, I promise Ill be back soon as possible... Want to thank to all of Your support my friends. You have proven that You are real friends, and Ill never forgot this. Thank You. Sincerely Yours Mirko Botko (DJ-WaPer)
Waper...I almost wrote the same thing last week for my blog and was considering writing something similar for this Friday's blog. It's hard to read your thoughts and feelings coming out of someone elses heart & soul. I feel wrong and hypocritical to tell you to hang on and have faith because right now I am not feeling strong in that area at all. I know that this is rough, but you are definitely not alone. I got 2 weeks before I am up the creek without a paddle myself...I could use a major miracle right about now as well. Just remember that its not over until its over...there is always a way out. THAT much I do know...even when I am struggling to believe that, it is true. One day at a time...all you can worry about. I am sorry you are going through a hard time as well. Thinking about you here. Hang in there!