refracted moments in my heart

           you linger

the shadow of your silhouette

lifted from the bedside

it’s not that I forgot

your smile will never leave

but years have reminded me

of how immense the chasm runs inside

easier

it don’t get easier

it won’t get easier

that morning haunts me

I still cannot believe it

if I could take those messages back

the hate was unjust, as valid as it felt

a bittersweet cocoon

wraps around these tired eyes

to never heal

seem right by fate and time

easier

it don’t get easier

it won’t get easier

easier

it don’t get easier

it won't get easier

suspended from acceptance

I can’t let the anguish fade

or risk losing you yet again

easier

it don’t get easier

it won’t get easier

easier

it don’t get easier

it won’t get easier

easier

it don’t get easier

it won't get easier

This is a song about a true story.

You get invited to hang out with a good friend one night. You go over to their place and no one is there. You call and text and get no answers. After an hour waiting, frustrated, you leave an angry message and go home to bed. A couple hours later you are awakened to calls and texts telling you that your friend had a sudden seizure and passed away. And you are left with shock, grief, and regret! This is Bittersweet.