@the-erik-jurado-experience
<p>Yeah, everyone can see exactly who I am talking about. Your blog entry that pushes your latest release and allows the public to be aware that you make music shows your insecurity and your disregard of others at this site. Do you know who else has new releases? Did you ever wonder about that? All of the people who have recently uploaded tracks to the site! Makes sense? But your stuff is more important. That's right, your ego needs nourishment. Forget doing it the long boring way of actually paying attention to others' work, because everyone here at this site is here to get the chance to learn of your new release through your blog post, rather than get in line with the other musicians here who have also posted new releases. Here's a thought musical genius - try showing that you are awesome enough to take the first step of deserving someone on this site to listen to your music by showing the musicians who have also uploaded their new tracks, that you are interested in finding out about what they are up to. When I see a blog post about a musician telling a story, or having something other than music on their mind - very interesting. A chance to find out something a little deeper than the fact that you can play instruments and piece ideas together to make a nice little package of thoughts and ideas that we call songs. I am in no way diminishing what it takes to perform this awesome feat - if you think I am saying this to bash musicians you still don't get it. Almost everyone here makes music, we know that by the fact that they have music on their pages. Blog entries show others a different side to the musicians that you don't get to really know about within a song. Hey, look! A musician on this site has a new show - awesome! Hey this guy is having a rough time, that's a shame. WOW! What a great comeback story! What a great diverse community!</p><p> </p><p>BUT, NO. THose stories get pushed to the back because you and DJ Scratch-N-Sniff put out some new dope tunes that everyone has to hear or you are selling your new release at whogivesafuck.com. Who fucking cares? Your ego is the reason I don't participate here much any more. People like you who think we're all here to discover you rather than we should all take the time to discover what each other is up to and what we are about. First you don't take the time to consider everyone else does the same thing you do - make music and wonder what people think about it. Now you are pasting your fucking ads all over our thoughts and ideas that we share to get noticed. Next thing will be a non-stop barrage of everyone trying to push their stuff and using all of our email addresses to spam us like they do at a couple of the other sites that your kind has already ruined. </p><p> </p><p>WAKE UP! GET A FUCKING CLUE! USE YOUR IMAGINATION! If you want someone to listen tell them a story - then relate it to your music. NOTHING AT ALL wrong with that. But when I see your "NEW BLOG ENTRY" and it says you have a new release, I see you as the type of dumb ass that gives musicians a bad name and I don't even want to be associated with you.</p><p> </p><p>Nah, I'm kidding! I just finished a song that I worked long and hard on, it's called, "Find My Way Back Home." It is about the idea of myself becoming homeless and how I would still be myself yet my dreams would be to recapture what I have now. If I don't appreciate what I have now, then I deserve to lose it, because there are millions and millions of people who have it pretty bad. It took me a couple of years to learn how to play all 3 acoustic guitars to do their thing in the song, but then again, I am going on my 3rd year as trying to make music.</p><p> </p><p>I guess this isn't so much of a rant as it is a lesson on how to use your imagination to get a little attention. Oh I can see my phone is ringing now - some newly rehabilitated person probably just finished reading this and wants to thank me for setting them straight - oh there's the other line too! Someone's now knocking at my door! There's that attention that I was talking about. I gotta go! A THIRD LINE RINGING NOW? DAMN! CAN'T I GET A LITTLE PEACE???? LMAO!!<br /><br />By the way, do what you want - I could give a flying fuçk. This is an easy-going site, nobody will ban you for pushing your music. But, I'm pretty confident that I'm not the only one who sees your blog and thinks to themselves, "WHAT AN A$$HOLE THIS GUY IS!" or "WHAT BUNCH OF DOUCHEBAGS!" You make yourself look bad. Show a little imagination.</p><p> </p><p>• • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • •</p><p> </p><p>That was written yesterday. </p><p>I'm not an angry person. I do however feel a need to speak up for those who are more passive than I am, and I see this as an abuse of the community (how dramatic, huh? LMAO!) When so many people follow the rules and you have these handful of people who circumvent the unspoken rules of protocol, it is a form of cheating. People who don't like confrontation end up figuring, "What's the use?" and eventually get tired of the integrity of the site being compromised. I could care less whether it continues or not. I have already paid for my year here. I stopped coming here a while back when I was participating my ass off only to be ignored. (I could understand people having a lot to do and not having the time to return the gesture of commenting, but come on - if you read your message, click reply and say, "Thank You." or some acknowledgement that you received your message.) I stopped participating so much over here because the lack of regard. There are some things at this site that have me not totally abandon it altogether. One of those things is the sites blogs. Some of these blogs are really cool because you really get to know more about the writers (yeah, I complain to much - you got me! LMAO!) But one day, I was reading as many blogs as I could, and enjoying the hell out of them. It was kind of like an archaeology project - digging up the past. But with the many, many pages and all of the advertising blogs to sift through I eventually gave up. (My pages take about 10 seconds to load and it was becoming an annoying task to sift through all the bs.) When I came to the site yesterday to see who has posted anything of interest, I saw more of these advertisements. It hit me that I might have to forget about even bothering with this place. Then I thought of Jim. It's people like him that I would miss the most. I coupled that with the fact that he had mentioned that he liked a couple of my blogs, so I figured I'd blog this up for Jim! (THAT DOESN'T SOUND RIGHT! BUT SOME REASON I AM LAUGHING!! I THINK I'LL KEEP IT IN! LMAO!) So I figured that the fact that the lack of regard runs deep here I will be the jerk to bring up the things that annoy me and keep me away.<br /><br />I am not putting down those who are managing the site - I see myself as trying to expose the areas that could use a change, because I'd really like to want to be a regular here. I see there has been a lot of work put into improving the site. And I understand nobody wants to be accused of denying someone free speech, but these blogs aren't free speech - they are free advertisements.</p><p>At another music site I visit, there are about 10 people over there whose music I just love, and jump all over as soon as I see they upload a new tune. What makes it great is that when I upload a new tune, they are right there giving me their opinions and comments. I always ask for constructive criticism and they are not shy about giving it. I don't believe that it is a coincidence that we all happened to join the right site at the right time and it can't happen naturally at any site, I think it may have to do with the musicians there calling people out on their BS. Maybe that does go on here - I admit I am not a regular and don't know shit about this site. But the few things that I do like about this site I am slowly losing patience in. No, not you Jim - you're cool! LMAO!<br /><br /></p>
<p>I made a lyric page for my inner cover for my wanna-be cd and thought I'd post it on my blog. I figured someone might be interested in something they see or think it was a cool idea and try it for their tunes. I was mainly just bored.</p><p>• • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • •</p><p>LYRICS by THE ERIK JURADO EXPERIENCE:</p><p><span><strong>RIDE ON</strong></span> take your time and feel the vibe get into the rhythm if you open your mind open it wide i'll take you to the moon rules don't apply so dare to defy and take it to the limit the longer you ride the deeper inside you'll get into the tune a journey for freedom of thought is good reason to light up this candle c'mon get up and go exercise imagination feeling spacetime sensation the best things in life aren't really ever that complicated ride on we'll ride on wanna see what's at the edge of forever listen for the gravitational pull transmit the pictures ride on i'll do my best to lead you where your mind senses its freedom you may decide to take your own ride choose any place or reason and a true open mind won't be predefined by dogmatic baggage experience heavenly blissful peace or even hell if you like to scream a journey for freedom of thought is good reason to be on your way if you wanna get up and goexercise imagination feeling spacetime sensation the best things in life aren't really ever that complicated ride on just ride on are you ready for your trip through forever i'll listen for your sound waves i wanna hear what else is out there ride on i'll do my best to read the signals from your voyages of freedom take some time feel the vibe get into the rhythm i see you've opened your mind opened it wide how did you like neptune rules don't apply we dare to defy and take it to the limit the longer we ride the deeper inside we get into the tune a journey for freedom of thought is good reason be out on our way so let's get up and go exercise imagination feeling spacetime sensation the best things in life aren't really ever that complicated ride on we ride on ever wonder why we trip through forever maybe cause we realize that we don't have all the answers ride on i'll do my best and keep on riding to experience new paths of freedom <span><strong>BEE</strong></span> she doesn't need to believe in silly dreams like the teens she knows they turn to screams she's had it rough had enough i don't suggest you test her cause she'll call your bluff she doesn't ask for much she's always filling in time and just the thought of her touch i feel my temperature climb that's my girl that's my girl that's my world can't wait to see her tonight tonight i've seen her glow at a show the only way to describe it is i feel her feel the vibe that's how i know yeah i know the only girl around that likes it fast and likes it slow she never needed a man don't even need me my only hope to make it right is leave her bee that's my girl that's my girl she's my world she's coming home right now you better believe she'll be speaking her mind she listens to all my shit when i need to unwind that's my girl that's my babe she's my world she's on her way right now right now can't wait to see her tonight tonight she's seen me weak knows my flaws she's seen me snap and break the laws but when i needed an inch she was there with a mile nothing seems to matter once i see her smile that's my girl that's my babe she's my world she's coming in right now that's my girl that's my babe that's my bee<span> <strong>I DON'T KNOW AND I DON'T CARE</strong></span> instrumental <span><strong>KEEP ON RAINING</strong></span> cancel all of my plans for the day the wind blows cold clouds are so gray i feel the rain is on the way i hope it's here to stay i love a rainy day wash today down the drain rain keep on raining rain i love the rain keep on coming down all day oh yeah i hope it keeps on raining wash the day down the drain hear the tapping on my window pane sound is comforting easing my brain getting out of my bed such a strain instead i think i'll remain i love a rainy day wash all the stains away rain keep on raining rain i love the rain keep on coming down all day oh yeah i hope it keeps on raining until the stains wash away <span><strong>CAPABILITIES BEYOND CONTROL</strong></span> live for next life not me once tried thought twice couldn’t leap time is right now for me free minds think twice not sheep true nature andan open mind all answers within reach unless the signal weakens by the static that they preach question all theories truth is easily identified research and reason superstitions subside takes time takes trial makes right soon find not blind renews sight make peace with fire and burn bright own mind roam time so hone tight we each have capabilities connects us each within our souls each universal spirit dreams of meaning freedom and a superseding sense of control question all theory truth has no reason to hide research and reason all you need for the ride on a trip within the mind beyond the patterns and designs stare so deep and fall inside there's a light within divine ask the questions seeking light rise above the wrong and right understand that inner sight spans all space and time seek the world you hope to find dreams are elaborate and sublime don't ever stop just keep on trying until your spirit flies until it flies and it'll fly until you fly and you will fly don't ever stop just keep on flying we each have capabilities connections deep down in our soul we're universal spirits armed with capabilities beyond all control question all theory believe in color not just black and white research and reason i fucking do it every day and night always question what they say choose whatever games you like to play never feel lonely when you share healing starts when you show you care i can't imagine any other way i never knew another way no other way <span><strong>MORNING JAM</strong></span> instrumental <span><strong>NOTHING PERSONAL, BUT... </strong></span>sometimes i need to shout to let my feelings out when life leaves me in doubt some find nowhere to blend so hard to find a friend figure time to pretend play a big shot to an amateur lot so hard to get caught no one can tell the game that you sell i like how you spell critiques you claim as light don't really shine that bright most seem to just incite so let's see what you can do can you play the kazoo i'll give you a nice review listen big shot i don't admire you a lot or the lessons that you taught what made you come here did you have a bad year next time you should try beer blah blah blah blah blah blah constructive criticism blah blah blah blah blah blah can't anybody take the heat blah blah blah blah blah blah i am bulgarian beat a very successful european promater whatever the hell promater is i know you have the right to say what you might can't you be decent too most learn that when they're six a lesson learned that sticks nobody likes you pricks c’mon big shot you're put on the spot let's see what you got put up a song show me i'm wrong or is it too difficult i hope someday you see a cooler way to be and you can be set free in the mind not the mouth probably won't be too soon probably won't make a tune so safe and so immune c'mon big shot i put you on the spot let's see what you got put up a song don't need to be long prove me wrong blah blah blah blah blah blah freedom of speech man blah blah blah blah blah blah i have the right to say what i want bulgarian beat has the right to say what he wants about any song because after all i am a very successful music promater i still don’t know what promater is whatever i've wasted too much breath you're probably all full of meth that stuff can cause you death c’mon mr le chef god knows you're not tone deaf c'mon put up a song let's see what you can do so big shot i put you on the spot let's see what you got put up a song it don't need to be long and prove me wrong can you hear me big shot what the hell have you got i'm putting you on the spot let's see what you do can you play the kazoo i'll give you a nice review oh bobby you're getting so good on the kazoo you played mary had a little lamb uh very nice don't worry about those couple of notes you missed in the middle it could happen to anyone keep your head up young guy attention all planets of the solar federation attention all planets of the solar federation attention all planets of the solar federation we have assumed control we have assumed control we have assumed control <span><strong>OCHO</strong></span> i am a good person i i i i i i i i i i me me me me me me hahahahahaha yeah wooo <span><strong>INNER THOUGHT PROCESSES</strong></span> instrumental <span><strong>A PRAYER FOR EVERYONE - EXCEPT JIMMY</strong></span> held a grudge after our fight all day my mind was scheming decide to ask for peace with all my might that cold winter evening sacred request and a purposeful slight should ease this childhood seething a prayer for everyone in the world to be safe from all the evil except jimmy not jimmy don't save jimmy the main intent was to indict and laugh as he's weeping went to bed filled with delight turned away from his pleading but still something just wasn't right as the darkness was seeping i prayed that everyone in the world would be safe from all that's evil except jimmy not jimmy then i went to sleep that night couldn't get it out of my mind all i could think of was his plight i was sure he was screaming had to do something to make this right once i imagined the bleeding that's when i changed the prayer that i recite gotta start the healing a prayer for everyone in the world to be safe from all the evil even jimmy yes jimmy don't forget about jimmy you can't forget about don't you forget about tell me you won't forget jimmy <span><strong>SLEEPING</strong></span> slowly fading through thoughts invading been uneasy since my dreams have been hazy as i'm sleeping the dreams come near the moment before they reach me i swear they disappear i want what i can't get in my sleep i won't let this be my mind's meant for me and i will never stop believing in it all i need is a piece of time and leave all my problems behind see what i want to see i can be who i want to be and do the things i love to do my friend you'd be there with me too when reality's against me no one ever gets me the dreams i'd remember but they're not there they're not there morning waking how long will i take it no dreams to ease me so nothing ever frees me until i see you sleeping before the dawn starts creeping you look so peaceful and in that moment i feel so tranquil i love to see you at peace when you dream i need to let you be who you are so you can dream so free it's been my only peace of mind and in that piece of time all my problems are left behind while you see what you want to see when you're who you want to be all those things you love to do my friend you take me there with you and since reality's against me no one ever gets me the thoughts of you dreaming help ease the despair no despair <span><strong>AMERICA IS NOT WHAT IT SEEMS</strong></span> such shallow minds can be so blind the things they say give them away while those in need who gotta feed denied by greed no way the right is wrong our time is long and things should change today to think a person can be so cold just as if their heart's been sold to me the heart's worth more than their gold when many face each day with no way to meet their basic needs we must try help them replant those seeds provide them with a little relief the right view others' life as so cheap america is not what it seems no one knows that i pray in my own way best kept inside for me to bide not on display and everyone deserves some sun everyday seek those ray some find the light through darkest of skies or warmth in which our comfort relies radiate the mongers of hate this melting pot destiny's what makes our country so great we must seek domestic tranquility baby ever look in eyes of the free the light in them reminds me to see america still has its dream life is rich life's a **** so find your niche the game is played a price is paid then soon we fade way too quick may not seem fair but when you care you'll be amazed feel love and praised our country is at war with itself let's re-define our personal wealth don't be misled by popes kings or queens or republicans the senator's apology's obvious for all to see what they believe that's g o p policy fight for corporate rights can you believe they're selling out majority america's being robbed by the rich through oil war deceit and fear so let's take this country back just ask the axis he knows everything <span><strong>HAND IT OVER</strong></span> time heals all pain i recall somebody once told me i have myself to blame accepting what they sold me assistance cuts means taking back control and purpose they want me off my ass seek my own social service this first request begins with standard procedure reach for the sky welcome to my first adventure there's no way around it hurry hand it over i'm collecting tax directly from the well refined try not to look so aghast let's get this over too late trying to make me change my mind door to door in search of friends when i was younger i learned how capable i am to feed my hunger life gets tough it's up to me to make mine better a mental coat would fit me cozy like a sweater last year my part time job's cut claimed i burden the nation now i'm private sector and i'm helping job creation i'm tired of being called the bad guy fucking hand it over i'm not cold and callous but look in these eyes i hope you're not refusing help i need for my family that's all i needed to hear now you can say goodbye13 years of time invested in my education 14 schools i figured i'm an aberration finally came a time to stop making connections cause when they're gone they always felt just like rejections i testify through time with drinks and medication these bills are due i need some cash for compensation business that profits courts exempt them of their crimes now i'm in business and i'll trade your dollars for my dimes wise last second decision turning everything over now i bet you're wondering about that pain inside i'll level with you off the record now our transaction's over relax and take some shots of whiskey it will heal in time <span><strong>DROWNING</strong></span> drifting wading patience fading splashing sinking struggling drinking drowning i'm drowning plunging choking vision broken wishing trying gasping dying i'm drowning i wish that i could see your face just once again i'm drowning again i just can't pretend i'll be saved it's too late though i tried must be fate don't have what i need i'm ironically freed guess i lost no big deal once i drown i won't feel drowning drowning drifting wading patience fading splashing sinking struggling drinking drowning i’m drowning i'm going down to drown i'm down i'm going down <span><strong>MR. BILL</strong></span> mr bill mr bill why do they squash you and crush you and mush you and smash you and all you can say is oh no why do you sit there and take it why don't you get them back and make them pay for smashing the dough mr bill mr bill how many times do you get killed don't let them smash you or mash you or bash you and don't forget ahhhh <span><strong>BLOW ME AWAY</strong></span> we live our lives within a breadth of time we make the best of what we've got even if it not a lot last night the wind was blowing cold i felt a chill take hold left me empty inside as i was buried in thought we all make our own mistakes even chances we didn't take sometimes these lessons learned become who we are since we're the ones who are left to live our lives with these scars everything that we choose some we win some we lose and what might be right for me may not be right for you i know the opposite is also true so please don't think i'm blaming you i really wish you wouldn't take offense to the things i say so when that cold wind hit me yesterday i knew there was nothing i could say nothing i could do the one who blew it must be me because everything's all up to you those cold winds keep coming around they blow so cold i shiver from the sound last night they even brought me to my knees only the thought of seeing your face again kept me from the depths of its freeze i'd give my life to be with you through time cause without your touch i'm really not much and with those winds all around i know my end is confound since the cold from the emptiness drive me insane i thought you'd be here with me everyday now there is nothing i could do nothing i could say if this decision were left to me i'd ask please come home today just come home today i need you here with me those cold winds keep blowing through they blow so cold but what can i do i can hear them blowing through the trees if i knew you believed in me it would keep me from the freeze <span><strong>DAWN OF A NEW DAY</strong></span> blazing the earth's on fire my world's ablaze wasted mesmerized i can't help but gaze i'll make the best of what i got i've gotta take a shot i'm gonna keep rollin' on maybe i'll reach the dawn illusion our dreams weren't meant to be obtained confusion sometimes i don't know what i'm saying make the best of what you got or take another shot if you keep rollin' on you're gonna reach the dawn rough times never last here comes the dawn of a new day they'll be buried in the past with our **** ups and our mistakes push life's ugliness away at the dawn of a new day nature creates the beauty it destroys pressure to understand yet keep your poise you can settle for what you got or take another shot if you feel like rollin' on just gotta reach the dawn rough times never last here comes the dawn of a new day they'll be buried in the past with our **** ups and our mistakes push life's ugliness away every dawn of a new day i gotta find a better way i gotta see a better day agitation can't let bad thoughts weigh on your mind eradication the dawn will leave today behind we can settle for what we got or take another shot either way we're rollin' on until we reach the dawn rough times never last here comes the dawn of a new day they'll be buried in the past with our **** ups and our mistakes the ugliness begins to fade at the dawn of a new day i gotta see a better day </p> <p>• • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • •</p><p>THESE SONGS WEREN'T INCLUDED ON THE CD:</p> <p><span><strong>WHAT HAPPENED, SON?</strong></span> it's a tragedy when somebody ends their own life especially at a young age this was the last day in the life of kyle kubachka what happened, son sweet relief cold steel in my hand sweet relief inside the chamber will i have the courage to send myself to some other land as i lie all alone i wonder my life's not going the way i planned i'm finding it hard to cope everybody's tell me it's temporary there's no hope i wish that i could share this burden that lies deep within that i long for a place warm without a care a place where i can fit in tears would pour out of my eyes if i tried to explain don't blame yourself though that time never came i am loved and will be missed i know this to be true i just can't stop myself what am i to do this life is strange and difficult on the other side it's easy it's gotta be easier than this i want release from the unrelenting pain i feel this has to be done as soon as possible so my cherished loved ones the clock strikes three it's time for me to soar goodbye kyle you will be forever 19 in the hearts and minds of your parents your family and all of your friends goodbye <span><strong>THINK AGAIN</strong></span> before you ruin everything because your mind has blown your first mistake would be to drag me with you down that road think again there's gotta be a solution think again does it matter who's wrong think again don't need to add to the tension don't need to wreck your head so you better think again i see your situation is beginning to erode i won't stand by and watch you chip away at others' goad think again you gotta find a solution think again can you admit when you're wrong think again don't put the blame on a scapegoat yeah i see that you struggle everyday the same thing can't keep pointing at others even if they are to blame by assigning a scapegoat problems don't get solved and don't be surprised when these relations dissolve think again inaction to the comments facts and gossip misconstrued responsive triggers giving value self-respect subdued think again they'll push away at your buttons think again don't want to give them control think again just disconnect your emotion don't let them wreck your head so you better think again yeah just cause i don't respond to your last words that doesn't mean i concede the argument i make my own rules for the game i rise above think again then seek a higher plane so keep perspective don't let confrontation change your mood it shows you understand a self-respectful attitude <span><strong>LIES, LIES, LIES</strong></span> i won't listen there's always something wrong i feel there's something missing no signs of truth just words made up as alibis i get so tired of listening to lies lies lies i'm not perfect i'm lazy drink too much i'm immature i curse and such but if i hurt you i'll apologize and i'll mean it too if your way to make it right is put words in disguise i call those lies yeah i'm not listening to any more of your lies lies lies politicians corporate pigs religious phonies brokers it's so ironic that they advertise that they're so righteous patriotic bible thumping educated fetus loving family value market pumping just ask any orphan that you meet a single mother vet or drifter on the street i hope you'll listen whenever something's wrong and something ever missing here's a word of truth for you that i advise it's so obvious we'll see it in your eyes don't be like those i despise those motherfuckers spreading lies lies lies <span><strong>ABSOLUTION WITHIN</strong></span> wonder why i can't explain memories left inside my brain changes happening every day a change watching my loved ones drift away i'm absolutely alone my friend don't know when my time will end the only thing it seems should matter to me is being myself and free you too have the freedom to find what you need yes you do daydreams once came easy to me yesterday when we were running free sometimes thinking back to those days realize our memories turn to haze i'm absolutely alone in this world spend my time misunderstood by my girl i just can't help being myself sorry babe if you feel your life's on a shelf babe we tried and if we're really done with this ride our absolution within's justified time will be the only judge of me yes it will my mind showed some pictures to me lifetime supposed to wait and see sunshine always seems to burn me that's fine alone i'll face the journey i'm absolutely alone in this place wandering through time as i'm spiraling through space since i'm alone most of everyday it's pretty clear to me that i just gotta please the only person i know who sees yet doesn't mind who i am yeah that's me if you change your mind you know where i'll be yes you do</p><p>• • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • •</p><p>I don't know if this is even considered a blog, unless a blog is a collection of things that you have written during different time periods over the past 18 months that you have gathered to present in a single document so you can post it for all to read because you are extremely bored. If it is, then I'm good. If it's not, go ahead and call the blog police, I don't give a damn! LMFAO!!!</p><p> </p><p><em><strong>ERIK JURADO</strong></em></p>
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